2014-04-14

3/18和訳:生活のシフト

 
生活のシフト。3・11の福島の式典で思い起こされたのは、この前日本を訪れてからほぼ1年経ったということ。みんなつくづく思ったのは、この災害は知恵と人間性の新時代の知らせだと自然はいつでも一番パワフルだとそれなのに、日本は(世界も)支配と統制という過去と同じ道を辿っているかのようだわ。
 
原子力技術の自称「専門家」が発電所の再稼働だけでなく、他の国へ「技術」を輸出することさえ推し進めているんですもの。皆さんのことが思いやられるわ 何百万人の母親、父親、兄弟である皆さんが、まるで政府が不安と統制へ逆戻りする中で、愛と平和をもって前へ進み、別のやり方ができるんだと証明している。皆さんありがとう。

生活のシフト。私は、オーストラリアのゴールドコーストにあるここタガンで、ほぼ40年になる家族の家にいるの。この頑丈なレンガの家は私の父が設計し、サイクロンやどんな自然災害にも耐えられるように建てられたもの。でも、何年も前に、荒れ狂う嵐に耐えられず、バラバラになったの。きっと、今なら作り直せる。。。
 
パチャ、ヤニと私は、母と一緒に暮らすため、この家に戻ってきました。母は穏やかに年を重ねていて、ここに留まりたい気持ちがある。町医者や病院に通うことが多くなっているので、ここで母を助けるのが正しいという気持ちになったのよ。
 
ママはしっかりしてて、実はそれほど助けが要らないかも菜園を少し手伝えるぐらいかしら  でも、ただ心の平穏をもたらす「場合に備えて」ここにいるの。過去のパターンからシフトしてきてるのよ内も外も直しつつ、時がもたらした変化をかみしめながら。
 
 

パチャが13歳に。201432日。

 
さて、私たちは、今、ゴールドコースト近郊のジャングルの中の小さな区画(ちっちゃな菜園と果樹園が少しある)へ戻っていて、近くの高速道路や飛んでゆく飛行機の音で、産業発展のペースが分かるの。ゴールドコーストは、成長中の観光都市で、ビーチ、熱帯雨林、サーフィンで有名。それから、カジノ、形成外科とナイトクラブも。
 

私たちの素晴らしい家はウーンバの森林の中にあり、人に貸していて、いつか将来私たちが戻るのを待っているの。最愛のオーリーというブランビー種の馬が、馬好きの13歳の少女とその家族と一緒に近くに住んでいるの。いつでも好きな時に彼のところへ訪れて、ひと時を過ごせるのよ。とっても、とーっても、幸運だわ。


パチャとヤニは、この新しい環境で、元気に育ってるようね。新しい学校になじみ、新しい友達ができ、そばにいて、新しい体験を分かち合うのは楽しいものよね。ここの生活リズムはずっと早いけど、遠く鳴り響く海があり、「大地とつながり直す」体験をいつも歓迎してくれる。気楽に自転車に乗って、学校、ビーチ、お店に行けて、いくらか似た考えを持つ人たちがいる。彼らは地域コミュニティーや環境キャンペーンを支持しているの。

自然を守るために、地域の抗議活動に参加。。。


驚嘆した世界旅行の記憶は、少し色あせているのでも、経験が私たちを変え、私たちが何者であるか分かるわ未だに強く、選択のより所となっている。私にとって、順応することは簡単ではないわね。 平和と森林が無くて寂しい  スロー、スモール、シンプルにここで暮らすのは大変。次のステップ/プロジェクト/ヴィジョンがひらめくのを待ちながら、心の中の平和を養っているの。

それで、とても長く音沙汰なくて、ごめんなさい。
でも、なんだか、変化があったことで、私が何者で、この世界の中でどのようにしようか、どうすべきか、はっきりしないの。抗議、行動、訴え、プロジェクトの普段のやり方が、なんだか今は少し無駄にみえる。母や子供たちと一番一緒にいられる今この瞬間の暮らしを味わうことに浸っているの。
 
【翻訳:沓名輝政】


オーリー セラピー。。。

2014-03-17

Life Shifts


Slow Mother Blog 18 March 2014

Life shifts. The Fukushima commemoration has reminded me that it's been almost a year since we visited Japan.  We were all so sure this disaster would signal in a new era of wisdom and humility – that nature will always be the most powerful – but instead, Japan (and the world) seems to be on the same trajectory of dominance and control, with the self-proclaimed ‘experts’ of nuclear technology pushing not only to re-start power stations, but to export the ‘technology’ to other nations. My heart goes out to you all - the million mothers, fathers, brothers, sisters who, just as the government goes backwards into fear and control, go forward in love and peace to demonstrate that another way is possible. Thank-you.


Life shifts. I am sitting in my family home of almost 40 years, here in Tugun on the Gold Coast, Australia. This solid brick house my father designed and built to withstand cyclones and all natural disasters but could not withstand the emotional storms that dispersed the fabric of family so many years ago. Perhaps we can re-weave it now...Pacha, Yani and I have come back to share this house with my Mother who is gracefully ageing and whose will it is to remain here. As the visits to doctors and occasional hospitals increase, it felt like the right thing to be here to support her. Mum is magnificent and really doesn’t need much help – except perhaps a bit in the garden – but just being here ‘in case’ brings peace of mind. We have been shifting old patterns –renovating inside and out as we recognize the changes that time has brought us.
Pacha turns 13, March 2 - 2014...


So, we are now back to a small parcel of land in the urban Gold Coast jungle (we have a tiny vegetable garden and some fruit trees), the sound of the nearby highway and the passing planes a constant reminder of the pace of industrial development. The Gold Coast is a growing tourist city, famous for it’s beaches, rainforest and surf – but also for its casinos, plastic surgery and night clubs.
 
Our beautiful home in the forest in Woombah has been rented out and awaits our return sometime in the future. Our beloved Ollie brumby is living close by on an acreage with a horse-loving 13 year old girl and her family. We can visit him and spend time with him whenever we want to. We are very, very fortunate.

Pacha and Yani seem to be thriving in this new, stimulating environment, fitting in to the new schools and connecting with new friends. It is a constant joy to be around them and share their new experiences. The pace is much faster here, but the ocean roars in the distance and is ever welcoming for a ‘re-earthing’ experience. It’s easy to ride our bicycles to school or to the beach, or the shops – and there are pockets of like-minded people who support local community and environmental campaigns.

We've joined local protests to protect nature...
The memories of our incredible world journey fade slightly – but the experiences that changed us and make us who we are – are still strong and shape all our choices. It is not so easy for me to adjust – I miss the peace and of the forest - it’s harder to live a slow, small, simple life here. I am trying to nurture some inner peace while waiting to be inspired for the next step/project/vision.

So, I apologise for being out of contact for so very long, but somehow, with all these changes, I’m not as certain about who I am and how I will/should be in the world. The usual formula of protests and actions and appeals and projects just seems a little futile right now and I have been indulging in celebrating life in the moment to the best I can with Mother and my children. 

Ollie therapy...

2013-10-23

Back in Australia!


We’re back!
Our year long slow global odyssey has brought us back to Australia where we are now settling and deciding where we should be based for the next years ahead.
Our journey is impossible to describe in a single word – and little by little I will try to share some of the stand-out experiences we had along the way.  As a family, we have grown and deepened our connection with each other, our connections with friends and family, with the Earth – we have woven into our being strands of multi-colour fibres, shining and textured - strong, enduring, resilient, flexible. We are so very grateful for this experience.
For the time-being we are still on ‘holiday’, renting a beachside apartment, just a few minutes walk to the kid’s school. Pacha and Yani have been able to go surfing almost every morning before school – watching the sunrise and sharing the waves with the dolphins.  They have been warmly welcomed and although no-one is really interested in hearing all the travel stories, somehow there is an appreciation of the kind of kids that Pacha and Yani are right now – fun, alive, fearless and full of understanding about how very lucky we are to live here!
Thank-you for your patience with this blog. My expectations about being able to keep up with some writing along the way were obviously not met! I have no real excuse – somehow just enjoying the moments of where we were and dealing with the daily challenges of travel meant I just didn’t find myself with an urge to write it down. Maybe it was because it was all uploaded on facebook (please check my facebook page for photos) there was less of a need to write it down…In any case, my apologies for the lack of communication…
Deep thanks to everyone who opened their hearts and homes to us on our travels...

One of our last days on our journey, Pacha took this beautiful photo on the beach in Hossegor.

2013-08-11

A quick note from Ecuador

It's been too long - and I have no excuses!
My sincere apologies to people who have been waiting for an update - we have now been in Ecuador for almost 3 months catching up with family, friends and projects after an amazing (and busy!) 'slow' tour in Japan. We are indebted to the kindness and generosity of our friends in Japan...
I hope to be able to post a longer update soon - but in the meantime, here is Pacha's surf blog:
http://pachalina.wordpress.com/  - that gives you a bit more of an idea about what we've been up to. 
You are also welcome to find us on facebook (Anja Light) for photos. 
And finally - I hope this video (http://youtu.be/OqtZPqNy-sk) will make you smile - an introduction (from the eyes of Pacha and Yani) of the Cerro Seco Reserve.

2013-04-03

Too fast for a Sloth...

Slow Mother Blog
(Maybe too fast for a Sloth!)
 
‘Mum, you can’t be slow – it’s impossible for you!’
This is Pacha’s response to my singing the song words (‘cos, I’m going Slow…going with the flow…') while driving the car, running around between places, trying to calm myself down…Singing can be a kind of self hypnosis really, the more stressful the situation, the more I try to breath and let go – a little like riding a horse, or a surfboard, or a roller coaster - if you are too rigid you are more likely to get hurt…
 
I do rather agree with Pacha –
I’ve never really been a slow person - definitely more like a hummingbird with a short attention span! But still, I do understand the intention and value of going slow and am so grateful for the slow teachers in my life. I am so grateful to have songs to remind me - and children who will always reflect their honest opinion!
We returned to Australia at the end of February so I could help organise the ‘Economics of
Happiness’ conference in Byron Bay. 


It was also a wonderful chance to reconnect with family and friends, starting with a surfing birthday celebration for Pacha. It is so exciting to see the love for a nature, ocean life bubbling up in Pacha and her friends. When she spent a week with her best buddies in Evans Heads recently, they got up at
5 am every morning to go surfing before school! 12 year old girls surfing before school!! This gives me so much hope!

 
The Economics of Happiness conference was a great success. The 20 or so speakers (including fellow Sloth Keibo Oiwa) from a dozen countries were inspiring and inspired, along with the 400 plus audience members. It was an intense spiritual practice for me – taking care, supporting, backing up, responding to needs, averting disasters – all in the environment of some of the most evolved thinkers and ‘doers’ on the planet.  

On top of the challenge of the conference, just a few days before the event my Mother took ill and was admitted into hospital with a blood infection…While trying to ‘be there’ for my Mum, Pacha and Yani needed to be looked after, just as I was trying to hold many threads together in Byron Bay…

Somehow we made it through and Pacha was even able to come along to part of the conference and meet her surfing hero, Dave Rastovich. Wonderful friends took care of Yani and Pacha, Mum slowly
recovered in the hospital (with a few speedy dashes from Byron Bay to visit her), I got by on just a few hours of sleep and stayed healthy somehow…

I learned so many things about myself and others – the delicate balance of being there to hold
others and keep yourself together. Humans and their various responses under pressure.

 
I learnt that a hospital may be one of the worst places to ‘get well’ after a sickness. Yes, they are essential in an emergency – they help to avert death, but they don't really nurture life…To get well we need real, kind, human contact; we need sun and good fresh air, we need bright joyful reminders of life, we need nutritious food and abundant clean water.  To get well we need love.
 
The first time I went to visit Mum I brought home grown flowers and took her to sit in the sun…she
felt so cold from the air conditioning and they didn’t give her enough warm blankets; a small (600ml) bottle of water was provided to patients for the day…I don’t want to keep criticising because the emergency medical treatment may well have saved her life and that the vast majority of the world’s population don’t have the availability of this free service, but I kept thinking there must be a way to bring more healing into hospitals…

 
Now we have less than a week to go before we return to our travels, starting with 2 months in Japan.
We are excited and nervous, torn again between leaving our ‘comforts’ to jumping into the unknown but very happy about meeting our beautiful friends and family in so many different countries. Pacha and Yani are getting ready, practicing some songs and dance routines, packing in their skateboards (surfboards are just a little too difficult this time) and making the most of their last days in Australia for a while!

2013-02-16

Bali #2 Surfing Wonderland...

The kids love surfing - So we go surfing.

Surfing was one of our main reasons to come to Bali - the place world famous for an incredible range of waves along with warm water, gentle culture and low cost living. Now our time is almost finished here and I share some of the diary notes I have tapped into my phone along the way (mostly while waiting for the children to come in to shore!). For Pacha's surfing stories - take a look here: http://pachalina.wordpress.com/

1 Feb Serangan

Grounded again while waiting for the kids to come in from the ocean...it may never happen!
There are at least 50 people out there trying to catch the same infrequent waves, but that doesn't seem to stop the kids from waiting, trying, waiting...it's been 6 hours...sigh...
Yani told me later that he was helping a local grom get onto the waves.

6 Feb Nusa Lembongan

It is yet another morning of beautiful clear sky day. We were up at dawn to check on the waves...nup, not ready yet - like checking on some bread in the oven, or a fermentation process of some kind - but the surf is even less predictable unless, perhaps, you are a meteorologist and are watching the weather satelites...


It teaches patience and humility, it teaches living in the moment and seizing the opportunity when it arises.


A couple of days ago we had one of our best days ever - setting off on a motor scooter: 2 kids, 2 surfboards and one mother...we drove so slowly - about the speed of bicycle riding - laughing and singing and joyfully interacting with the people we passed along the way. Their advice was 'slowly, slowly' - but it was hard to imagine going much slower than we were - so we laughed some more!


This island of Nusa Lembongan doesn't have cars, just motor scooters and a few small trucks. To reach an even smaller island of Ceningan, you must cross an 80 metre suspension bridge just over a metre wide, the timber slats clack clacking away under the wheels. The whole way we chorused: 'woh, woh, woh' interspersed with laughter and joyous whoops as we made over without incident.


We kept riding along the bumpy, narrow tracks up to the most beautiful point where people jump off the cliffs into manta ray filled crystal blue waters. A little further along was a 'secret' surf spot - big, fat, powerful waves - shifting through shades.

I get into the water - there are big waves, and I have a big wipeout, but just being out there giving confidence to Pacha to catch a wonderful wave...there is still a place for Mum!


Unlike most kids who escape their parents to take on more risk - Pacha and Yani seem to like me near when they challenge their own fear boundaries...feels good.

Pacha describes the amazing sensation of catching a wave over crystal clear water looking down at stunning coral as she glides by...priceless moment that makes life worth living...

10 Feb 


Swimming with giant manta rays
Children fearless in the great heaving ocean - bountiful ocean...
some rubbish floating around, an image that must come to mind when we see any packaging of any kind...
Kids connecting without language with French kids along the way...
So joyful - always the sound of laughter...


15 Feb Bukit Peninsula

Our friend and surf guide Damien eventually finds us waiting on the roadside for a full day of wave searching on the holy grail of concentrated surf spots - the Bukit Peninsula. Uluwatu, Balangan, Dreamland - wave after wave of lefts and rights, barrels and power any variety of levels. At this time of year (monsoon) it's not supposed to be that good - and it's partly why we've stuck to the east coast, but it looks fine today!

The kids have paddled out with Damien, butterflies in their stomachs as always, so excited to get into the surf - they are so far away I have no hope of picking them out of the crowd, but I trust that they're getting some waves...I've bought one of those waterproof pouches so I can take photos of them in the water - leave it till later when the wave is easier to get to!


Uluwatu
The highest water level from the tide in the cave Damien has experienced, I watch my children disappear into the shadows, water crashing on the rocks - my heart in my mouth as I encourage Yani that it's going to be fine but inside I'm doubtful that he will go ahead...And he's gone!!!

My heart is beating furiously now as I scramble up the hill to see if they made it through...there they are! No looking back - paddling into the deep blue horizon. Pacha gets one of the first long waves and I can see she has taken Damien's advice to keep her left hand still - she's slowly getting the style and losing her windmills!


Pacha and Yani love leaping!


2013-02-03

Bali Time #1


It has already been a month since we have arrived in Indonesia. We have made a kind of base in Sanur, Bali where the kids can enjoy the ocean nearby, and I can enjoy feeling a little productive with a wifi internet connection and a laptop on loan. It is a beautiful place and despite the monsoon season, almost everyday there is some blue sky and warm sun! Everyday starts with a plate of tropical fruit and burst of sunlight on our little balcony.

We have recently spent a few days with my friend Alex Ryan – who remembers just about every detail of our ‘mission’ to the jungle in Kalimantan, Borneo, some 20 years ago. Alex says this was a turning point in her life – she met the love of her life in Kalimantan and now Indonesia has become her home. We hadn’t met since then, but have heard of each other from other mutual friends. We laughed about the similarity in our son's names (Alex's second son is 'Yan' - nicknamed 'Yani') and marvelled at the interesting timing we both built our homes out of reclaimed/thrown away materials at almost exactly the same time (around 2009).

Alex now lives in the famous Balinese cultural centre of Ubud with her husband (from Kalimantan) and three sons, doing a hundred things at once! They’ve built a beautiful home from reclaimed timber and open this to guests and visitors (http://www.pondoklangon.com/), they’ve been instrumental in the local campaigns to reduce plastic bag use and recycling initiatives, they’ve supported community NGOs on a wide range of campaigns and they’ve created a successful family business that promotes and sells reclaimed timber.  If you know anyone who is looking for a completely ethical source of beautiful timber, to be cherished for many lifetimes – please check their web page:http://www.kaltimber.com/

We talked for hours and seemed to have come to similar reflections on life. For both of us the priority is our children, supporting them in their own life journey and celebrating their joy and passion for life. We still do what we can do in service to the Earth, using the skills and experience we’ve accumulated over the past 20+ years, integrating this into our parenting by heart.  We talked about the daily, even momentary decisions and choices we must make for their welfare and for preparing them for what looks to be an uncertain future ahead. It is a constant dance, a constant juggle of priorities and we can only try to trust that our loving intention will guide us in the right direction…
High tech kids at Pondok Langon

The view from Alex and Yoga's home